12th day of Christmas! Yes, the last! A sad story and it happened last year when I was twelve

On the twelfth day of Christmas . . .

Just a reminder 13days before Christmas.

So right Christmas is a time for forgiveness and understanding yet people never really get it sometimes, I just posted in facebook that "fairness is not getting what you want it's getting what you need even if it look unfair in your perspective." People get confuse and the only thing I want most of all is peace and harmony in the air and I can't get it. Just because there's one person and for ears I don't know what I did to him, so OK we were friends at first but then he got all mad at me and I don't know maybe that person just changed. And for years I keep wondering "why?"

So one day I told my friend and then that person replied back and then he said "Sorry I was being such a jerk and I know. I didn't really mean it." OH! COME! ON! Why in the world or What in the world! Is the Earth going to exploded.

At first I believed him and we texted since we were friends again and later after two days he made a move he shouldn't have, he said like "I like your cousin." MY GOD WHAT A SLEAZE! Also when he said it, it was Christmas Eve isn't that nice.

Then at the end I was the sore loser because of him he is nothing but a jerk forever and ever and ever.

-THE END-

Physiology - FUN or SCARY. . .

I'm still a bit amazed, paranoid and scared but it was fun like some people I mean phys. it's like they know someone by just looking at them it's like they know who you are better then you know your self and it's kind of freaky. OK, so I got to this subject because the 2nd years including me(since I'm one to)were talking about some things or like we were opening our selves up, it's just that our teacher was a phys and we were suppose to get our results on our physiology test she gave us. Since some were not done we talked about other things.

So for one our teacher said "Describe yourself with one object." So I described myself to a rock. It was like the first thing that came out of my mind, I don't really know why but something was telling it was the best way to describe "ME", so I picked it, it felt like the perfect answer but I didn't know how to explain it. So when we were going to explain it I didn't know what to say it was like-BOOM! The explanation was in my heard right away, it got inside my head like I could explain it perfectly again. It was all so confusing.

Later she(the teacher)explained each of our objects to us and explained us and it was scary cause most of the things she said was almost like my but just a few edges but everything was like me again, except it wasn't directed at me like she new someone from the group with the problems.

But it was actually fun and I actually liked it since she said we might do it more and more every week I'd actually want to learn more about the me I never really did discovered yet.

Eleventh day of Christmas

On the eleventh day of Christmas . . .

I'm going to go Christmas shopping with my grandma and mom since they'll be picking us up and bring us home. I just can't wait it's been a long time not going home yet and yeah I miss is a lot wish I could be there already, I miss family already even though my mom was here two week ago and it already feels like three months!
I know. I know. I'm over reacting but-yes I badly want to rest from school but we will be bringing home some work over Christmas. I wouldn't mind much but there only three weeks of vacation! But hey, when will the learning ever stop-NEVER! Even we learn quite interesting stuff while growing older but things also we won't need to use for school.

10th dy of Christmas

On the tent day of Christmas . . .

Well my mom called me from Bali and asked what I wanted there for a Christmas present. All I just wanted was a book well books and that's enough for me I don't mind getting much things, I appreciate even the little things but most of all different memories in each one.

Like a picture. It's like every Christmas isn't the same and you just need a picture or one little thing to remember that special moment. For me every year is different and it's like Christmas is the last time to fix the problems you had this year, learn to accept and forget it happened. The time when you want to put things right and start out fresh in the new year to come.

Nineth day of Christmas

On the ninth day of Christmas . . .

So last time I told you about the parties well for starts the children in my family join most or sometimes all the parties if we can or if our parents allow so here's the list:

• Shell station parties ( Carmen, Kidapawan and Kabacan but we mostly go to Carmen since we live there)
• Workers parties (Dad's workers plus including with my mom's and them there's my grandmother's which we join occasionally)
• Relative parties
• Family party
• New years eve party and fireworks (which everyone in our town buys fireworks and all the families when it reaches 12 we light everything up and the sky is full of wonder, colors, lights and happiness.

So sometimes my family is packed but everything is all fun and games even though busy. Everything is just all great plus our whole entire family enjoys it.

8th day of Christmas

On the eighth day of Christmas . . .

I just love it when its' Christmas and everyone is preparing for it and then there will be a big feast where everyone shared the food they made, it just gives a cozy holiday feeling. It just sometimes make you feel more at home somehow, yet know one will notice if you feel that way.

Countdown: 17 MORE DAYS BEFORE CHRISTMAS! REPEATING 17 DAYS MORE TO GO!

I can't wait to smell turkey and ham and anyways I'll be helping cooking with my family which is fine by me. My family just loves cooking, especially I'm main cores and my cousin is dessert but we just help each other cause it's more fun.
My cousin and I we're the oldest from all the children so we also plan our family game and which ever comes first, then we also plan with my Tito for the children's party and then we join a group in the other parties which I'll tell you about I my new post.

Seventh day of Christmas

On the seventh day of Christmas . . .

Well I finish a bit early we all never can at the same time finish our seat works, so let's just say we don't need the extra load in other extra curriculum activities but we can work it through.
So just a reminder Christmas is in 18 days so be good or he won't give you anything at all.
Also my parents are leaving to go to Bali for a week, so I have to take care of my brother and sister which I have to call everyday but that's just fine with me.
Hopefully they'll be back before Chistmas so nothing to worry about, just hope they bring home some nice gifts. Hehehe.

6th day of Christmas

On the sixth day of Christmas . . .

Yesterday I was just so exhausted from the Christmas party, I didn't know what to do I was sleepy and out of energy. All I wanted to do was sleep everything was just all but tired. I even can't think straight what else am I going to do with out feeling tired, and Christmas is in 19 days.

Well I'm running low so give some advice to whoever reads this so that I'll have my energy back and make sure it's good ones.

Fifth day of Christmas

On the fifth day of Christmas . . .

Yesterday was just crazy and also today since we didn't sleep till seven in the morning. It was just great. So we started out with the cheers by group and them moved on with the cheers by year it was fun. the second years were just crazy well we were crazy, it was just hilarious with the beginning wiping our hair back and forth, then the G6 later Nico and Patrick after Charissa and Kenjee and last but not least, we pulled the forth years in and but left them in the middle when the song was done.(sigh) It was a memorable experience.
Anyways after all the cheers we started the games I got to do the hula-hoop, drink kamote juice(it was yummy but i was still so full i almost puked.), answer the drawings and junp in the pool. I liked my group very much and it all worked out cause we were first place which was great, the feeling was great also.
So I don't know how long we stayed in the pool swimming but maybe around 3-4 hours i know it's so much but I'm just guessing. We also didn't sleep whole night but we had fun. We told ghost stories, played dancing ball and many more things to do but it was worth it but the thing that's not woth it is the after musle pain.

4th day of Chirstmas

On the Forth day of Christmas. . .

Well today we went to CCF to listen to Francis J. Kong, as always he knows how to make an entrance, he even can make us all laugh which is great and that's a good thing cause most of us were all teens there. anyways after that we would be going to Alwanabut we ate lunch in Macdo and went to National to buy a wrapper for Charissa's kingle. (meant for yesterday)

Third day of Christmas

On the third day of Christmas . . .

Well today was soccer and well i got hit in the stomach it hurt but i was fine, I'm just not sure of Denise her hand got broken. At first it was her ankle or foot but now it's her wrist. This is not a good vibe for the Christmas spirit. TSK! TSK!
I don't want it to start it with people getting hurt. I hope before Christmas everyone has there spirit back.
anyway the next day would be the Christmas party which everyone was excited about. YEAH!!!

2nd day of Christmas

On the second day of Christmas . . .

It was just a normal day we anyways all had fun. Plus everyone was excited for the Christmas party. well also it was my "Business presentation" it went well but I'm not totally sure if my explanation was OK or just fine, i was a really nervous i don't know if my voice was shaking but it was scary.

Iwonder if we just bought our goats earlier and sell them before classes end; i wonder if a lot of people would buy our goats also by them but i want them to be all "BIG & FAT", that would just be great.

"First day of Christmas!"

On the first day of Christmas. . .

I've been eating no stop which is bad and by the end of the week I'll bet I'd gain 2 kilos! Ah! This is such a bad way to start the holidays, very, very bad but I will promise to myself if I can to control it. I really am a failure sometimes.
So the holidays are coming and I can't wait, there will be much to do this week.

1. Christmas shopping
2. Sleep over(Katja and other high school students coming to Alwana)
3. Chrismas party
4. Giving gifts to the poor

It really is quite tiring but who can put up to the Christmas spirit! Oh, what a joy! I can't wait for Christmas with all the gifts and roasted ham, fruit cake, candy cane, ginger bread, hot/chocolate. Yummy!

"HAPPY CHRISTMAS"

Everybody woke up, in the first fall of snow,
when I walked through the village,
everyone seemed to rejoice,
the snow was a gift from heaven above,
a gift for Christmas eve,

Chorus:

Christmas, Christmas, here's a spell,

we only need people to put happiness in the air,

throw all you sadness and the sorrow's gone,

cause it's a time for Happy Christmas songs,

Christmas is a time for love and forgiveness,
a time for families to join hand in hand,
everyone brought gifts and smelled roasted ham,
and every thing's full of happiness,

Chorus:
Christmas, Christmas, here's a spell,
we only need people to put happiness in the air,
throw all your sadness and the sorrow's gone,
cause it's a time for Happy Christmas songs,

It's just a simple feast with family and friends,
laughing and talking round the chimney,
Christmas is full of joyful moments,
wishing to last an eternity,

wishing upon a star so bright,
in the midis of trouble and faithful times,
it's midnight of Christmas eve,
yet full of life within the circle so bright,
that reminds me of the birth of Christ,
that all gives us hope when I feel there's no light,

Chorus:
Christmas, Christmas.....(Continue)....

"Something that lies a mystery"

the day will long, while light is near,
where no darkness nor light can be revere,
the sears of burning fire calls. . .

. . .but there is dout that can't be quench,

while you listen keenly to what it said,

burning, burning all the years,

never have i known i'll be the one to share,

the pain i feel locked up somewhere. . .

. . .From the bottom of my heart I vow this oath,
with pride to give my word or cursed,
the curse I keep locked inside,
is the one that will destroy me all my life. . .

. . .i neglect to overlook what i fear,

but then the light has disappered from where i stand,

yet darkness diminishes with light in its hands,

i overgrow to perceive what's on my path,

yet my questions unrequinted until i am claimed at last. . .

. . .when darkness and light can finally soothe in my hands,

and slumber a deep slumber that that will never arouse,

with all the power left in me, i will beckon to unearth,

the treasure hidden somewhere in the darkess depts of my heart.

( hope you like it :) )

16 to 25 (poem)

• 16 years, and here I am growing up with fears within,

• 17 years, of growing strong all unleashed my fears all gone,

• 18 years, legal age i can drive anywhere it's OK,

• 19 years, nothing much i can't wait for some collage fun,

• 20 years, half adult wait till you see what I'm capable of,

• 21 years, perfect age with a broken heart but it's OK,

• 22 years, almost done gonna get a degree oh what fun,

• 23 years, 2 more years my heart will soon recover and fully heal,

• 24 years, I'm all strong ready for the world here i come,

• 25 years, working hard I can't wait what else has to come.

Parties

I LOVED THE parties this I just went to it was fun

1. party in the plaza
2. baptism after party of my baby sister
3. my grandfathers birthday
4. fiesta in Carmen, Cotabato

it was all just fun but the two last are still tomorrow can't wait but i don't have a present for grandpa.
Oh well it matters whats from the heart then the material things given.

You're like these little things

You're like a flower that always bloom,

you're like a tree strong and steady,

you're like the sun shining above,

you're like a clown, funny weird and always happy,

you're like these little things which makes you special,

you're unique to me and everyone around you,

just remember in your heart you still our . . . . .

( can't tell you who the person is sorry just my little secret.) ;p "winking"

To be heard

To be heard out loud,

do i really need to shout,

to be speaking my,

-Haiku-

Smiling

Making me happy,

I enjoy smiling with you,

I love you dearly,

-Haiku-

Breathing exercise

Try this, for every sentence you have to say it in only one breath. Are you up to the challenge. :)




Jack built a house.

There lay a molt, in the house that jack built.

There was a rat, that ate the molt, that lay in the house that jack built.

There was a cat, that killed the rat, that ate the molt, that lay in the house that jack built.

There was a dog, that worried the cat, that killed the the rat, that ate the molt, that lay in the house that jack built.

There was a cow with a crumpled horn, that tossed he dog, that worried the cat, that killed the rat, that lay in the house that jack built.

There was maiden all for lorn, that miked the cow with the crumpled horn, that tossed the dog, that worried the cat, that killed the rat, that ate the molt, that lay in the house that jack built.

There was a man all tattered and torn, that kissed the maiden all for lorn, that milked the cow with the crumpled horn, that tossed the dog, that worried the cat, that killed the rat, that ate the molt, that lay in the house that jack built.

There was a priest all shaven and shorn, that married the man all tattered and torn, that kissed the maiden all for lorn, that milked the cow with the crumpled horn, that tossed the dog, that worried the cat, that killed the rat, that ate the molt, that lay in the house that jack built.

There was a crow that crowed in the morn, that waked the priest all shaven and shorn, that married the man all tattered and torn, that kissed the maiden all for lorn, that milked the cow with the crumpled horn, that tossed the dog, that worried the cat, that killed the rat, that ate the molt, that lay in the house that jack built.

There was a farmer who sowed the corn, that fed the crow that crowed in the morn, that waked the priest all shaven and shorn, that married the man all tattered and torn, that kissed the maiden all for lorn, that milked the cow with the crumpled horn, that tossed the dog, that worried the cat, that killed the rat, that ate the molt, that lay in the house that jack built.

Haiku

"A circle of friends,
is a world full of laughter,
holding hand in hand"

- Hi -

Simply me

I'm just one of your average teenage girls who is still a bit (a bit) confused of growing, it is hard but just enjoy while it last. I'm simply an ordinary person but I want to be the kind of ordinary person who knows how to make funny jokes which I'm really bad at.
I'm simply me because I'm me and that is the easiest explanation to explain it. Without the tricks and without anyone to can judge me I can fell myself and express myself freely in my own way of being simply me.

If I want to shout then I shout if I want to cry out loud then Let me cry out loud, people can say anything about me but they cant destroy who I am they have to learn to accept me for me. No one can judge me because they don't even know me that well then others do, so how can they judge me for being simply me. Maybe there more insecure about themselves so they put there insecurities on other people or they have a problem of their own, so they make other people fell more bad about themselves and I got that information from my own experiences.

Don't forget that simply you is just the real you covered in thick layers of insecurities.


(Ms. Jeni there was something wrong with my Internet I sorry got to sleep see you later today at dawn)

"Live life to the fullest"

Life is never fair and just to short, life is never always happy but like I said in my other post there are no second chances. You can redo the things over and over and over again like a movie trying to be perfected and yet it will never be the same as the first one or rather yet it will never be perfect, no matter what you do to make sure life for you is perfect there will always be a bump on the road no matter the consequences. You know sometimes people need to understand what is the meaning of life is they need to open there eyes and see the world around, see what joy it offers and yet when you see the joy it offers you also see the sadness it brings.

People tell me "Let go, relax, open your eyes, spread your wings, take it easy, rest, etc." people tell me these things especially my mom and dad always encouraging me to "Cool down or you're going to get high blood when you're still young". I laugh at these things but to tell you this is all so true.

It's like you're this shy person who is so quiet around people and they judge you for that but the truth is your not. Pretend you're a hermit crab, you're always scared if something or someone goes to near so you hide the real you in that thick shell of yours, there were times when you can't fit your shell so you have to fine a new one. Life is like that you have to start a new chapter a place where you fit and fell like you belong. You first need to find yourself and see who you really and truly are but you also need to show people who you really are. I try to do it with myself but steadily and slowly. I know life is just to short and all but people need to understand who we are and we feel to trust ourselves. We need to break out of our shells from time to time.

My teacher ones said we also have to go past our comfort zone because that's just the reality. I know she's right. My mom also reminds of that 'cause the life outside our childhood world it just to wild and unsafe.

People need to live life to the fullest not matter the options and mistakes you've done in the past. Life was given as a gift from God and I don't think he would be happy if we just wasted it not on just worshiping him but also enjoying ourselves with what is offered. To be honest, sometimes I regret life but I always take it back without even noticing. I'm happy where I am and where I have landed because without those mistakes and choices I wouldn't be here and I wouldn't know what I'd be right now. You know people are right you always need to live life with your fullest of hopes, dreams, love and gifts you've been given.

Enjoy what you have 'cause you don't know where you'll end up to be.

They have this thing called reincarnation but the sad part is you won't remember the things of what you've done in the past which is sad but still full of hope, which means there are really true second chances but only on chance which is only for every life you have so that it would never come to wither.

"Live life to your fullest and never regret anything in any way you think you've done wrong."
-Ella-

STUDY (meaning of study i got this from someone sorry if this is offending)

Sorry ms. and anyone who is offended i just got this from someone at school.


S - leep

T - ext

U - nhappy

D - ay dream

Y - awn

Oh, FYI you know that I don't mean any of these I got it from a friend and by the way kind of is funny. hahaha. I know what you think it really is let us say mean but it is to tell you creative, I don't really know how to explain this but wow.
I don't again mean this post to be offending and all again I say, I just wanted to post something like this it has just been A while when I put my last personal joke in my blog but since it isn't mine it isn't my originally but who can deny this little and a bit of insulting joke about Studying. hahaha

Dwight Howards amazing heart-warming story

You know I read this story from Yahoo and I felt happy-sad or sad-happy at the same time the person who wrote this is amazing 'cause this is an amazing, heart warming story.
Right you know who is Dwight Howard the basketball player. Yeah, well he was asked by this organization that (if you're almost going to die or if you're really super sick then they let you pick one of your best wish and make it come true)if you can go to this old woman who was dying with this aggressive cancer I don't know what it is called. Well if you are wondering if he went he did.
The next thing you know the woman was surprised to see her hero
"DWIGHT HOWARD"
in the front of her door.
He was only suppose to stay there for only 30minutes but then he decided to stay there for more than 2hours. See how amazing that is even for him being so busy just to spend time with this woman that she barely knows. These are the things she said about Dwight.

"Dwight Howard is just such a precious, wonderful kid," she says. "Whenever I watch him play, he just makes me feel good inside."

But then, Dwight ratchets things up a notch and really sets things off.

When she gingerly stood up to say goodbye, he bent way, way down, hugged her hard and told her something startling. He told this 4-foot-11 woman who is dying of cancer, "You are taller than me."

"That's the silliest thing I've ever heard," she said.

"No," Dwight insisted, "you are taller than me because your spirit lifts you up."

See how this story can make even the slightest have teary eyes it made me, still the story was happy-sad or which ever makes it sound right to you isn't this just a heart -warming story and wow I was amazed by i all mostly of Dwight.

Public speaking

You know what I think "public speaking" is so not my thing, it is because people say I talk to fast, my heart beats super fast and when there is a large crowd I have a shaky voice and while that my body shakes with it.
The weird thing also is that people think I have a "British accent" but I don't sill if I say that no one would ever believe me I would just be untrusted for my answer in that question. I really don't like public speaking and all but I just love the thrill the accomplishment it gives you it makes you feel so good, I don't know but I like being heard and in a crowd saying something good and helpful but I can't control my shyness it's just who I am as a person.


"I want to be heard but I'm scared to be heard because people might just mock me for it."

This is just me don't mind who i am because you have to accept me for me.

The meaning of "LIFE"

The meaning of life has never occurred to me many time in my life. I always thing of the future, past but mostly present, I adore the present times because I'm always happy. Yes, there are times when I get all emotional and all but that's just part of life people keep telling me, that move on with your life it's the past and we can't do anything to change it it already happened so we can't just change it like go back in time to fix your mistakes it will never work.

They say that Life is a gift and yes I am grateful for it but I just need to know what what is the true, specific, ideal, unquestionable, perfect, and easy to understand meaning of Life. Someone tell me what is life to you then just a gift from God, I am here to ask you what do you think of life open your eyes and think, think of what life is to you besides the things I've told you about it is a gift and from God. I wonder why even myself why I ask this question, the only thing I want to know what is Life to you in your own point of view of the world.

For me I have so many unanswered questions I want and need know of the meanings it is quite difficult to understand when at all I have know clue about anything, for my part the point of view of life to me is still an unanswered question. From what I've heard most people don't even know the answer. So tell me your story of life in your perspective way and manner.








Pls. if yo have an answer can you post or put it in my chat box.

"Predictable me"

I bet I'm the most predictable one in class I say the most random stuff I talk like an owl that is so boring, I also think people are not interested in me. So I think the best way away from me is try not to talk to me. Yet there are still people who come to me but I know they want to be nice I just feel sometimes kind of insecure. I don't know what they think of me which makes me more insecure. I never feel to cautious of my insecurities so I wouldn't really think of them. I am for me the most predictable person one I know, people tell me that " Yeah, yeah" or "wow... (sarcastically)", you know those tiny words really hurt if people just know how you feel, then maybe they would see all the pain that you're in.

If only people could be more polite sometimes and more generous then maybe everything would just be fine and the world would be just a bit peaceful. But later the world would just go upside down again and everything turns into your little nightmare, I wounder if everyone experienced it. Oh yeah it's one of my predictable questions for making me predictable again. The answer would be again of course everyone experienced this it wouldn't be human.

Why do I have to be a boring, predictable,insecure, etc. kind of person. I never am the right one I'm always the sour puss if I'm angry or irritated and when I feel all alone I'm the to quite and shy little girl that I am. I always need someone to help me on my feet I always need someone to talk to or I' ll always have an emotional breakdown, when I can't tell what I want to say because there might be some people who might criticize on what I'm going to say. You know I always want a very close friend because with a friend you don't feel alone and you have someone to tell your secrets to. It matters so much to me to have a friend by my side because we know that we have each others backs. I've already felt alone to many times that I need to help myself already and for the record I only have 5 very close friends

1. Joab
2. Ivana
3. Mandy
4. Natassja
5. Katja (I like calling her close 'causeum she was my first very super friend in CDO last year no one at all came that super close to me that fast.)

Most of them were only friends for a reason right so there reason is

• Sweet-Sweet (childhood friends)
• Joab (family friends)
• Mandy & Natassja ( AOS Davao)
• Katja (lets see were friendship may take us first)

So really I think this is how it goes. When I'm around them I don't feel predictable boring or any insecurities it's like these people have some kind of thing going on around them that makes me feel all OK they accept me for me and they actually are easy to talk to, they have this kind of charisma in them that attracts people.

Pizza!

PIZZA IS SO YUMMY.



Did you know pizza has become the most favorite dish in America over the last 50years. Pizza has also become a fast food icon.




History also says that the origin of pizza goes back all the way to the ancient times, yet they have not found solid proof. the most and best answer is that pizza was originated from Italy. That there was this chef that wanted to impress a king and a queen so he decided to get a flat piece of bread ant wanted to put the colours of there flag:

1. Red - tomato sauce
2. White - mozzarella cheese
3. Green - Basil leaves

The king and queen were so impressed by the chef creation that word spread and became a nation wide cuisine dish.

OH! NO!

Oh, no myself. Seems that I'm so busy next week we have our Long exams, dramatists for literature and more I don't even know where to start we are to busy especially for the long exams, I don't know what else to worry about. I bet there is still a lot more to handle when we get back to school.

OK everybody we need to rest, study and practice dear me I am so jumbled up. Wait! I forgot I have to memorize the two last paragraphs in the " Give me Liberty or give me Death!" speech.

MY BABY SISTER

My baby sisters

name:
Tricia Nicole T. Taray

age:
just 1 month and 5 days old.(today)

My baby sister is the cutest thing you'll ever see she's like a fluffy puppy but all babies are like that except for the fluffy and to fury part and with the wagging tail. My sister likes to laugh, cry, sleep(like me) and drink lots of milk.

She looks more like me than my parents when i was young. She has Rose coloured cheeks(but it's 'cause of the rashes), light red with a hint of pink lips like mine, long lashes, black hair, chubby cheeks and a bit chubby like me. Hahaha. Still it depends on you because I think I'm chubby or if you thing I'm purely fat it's OK.

I still think my sister looks like me my mom and dad even said that and no one can do anything about that.

(sorry don't have pictures I'll do it in school. Oh yeah sorry Ms. Jeni I didn't do my blog last night I had no time at all plus I was taking care of my baby sister since they arrived last night.)

miss Jeni you might get lost so this is my 2nd blog OK so sorry.

Soccer

The COSAA game has been officially canceled this September 4. Still I was happy to hear the news, it is because I think we might need the extra practice like everyone since we are still all newbies. I hate though it got canceled because my mom and dad were suppose to watch me play, in truth they never seen me play in a game only my dad but those were only practices we had in school but it would be exciting my mom and dad would see me play for real.

Though there was this teacher who told us that we were bad players and need to work harder on our footwork, you know it that really hurt our hearts ( ms. you know who you are) it was painful yes, yes it was all so true but she didn't have to hurt us. Anyways at the end we forgave her since she had a lot in her mind to so we understood.

Ms. we all forgave you so don't worry. :P

Breaking point

Have you ever had a

breaking point where you can't take it anymore

and you just had to let it all out even if it is kind of shameful but

right there is nothing to be shameful about it, since it is also a way of

expressing yourself freely to let it just all out so the pack you are carrying

will get lighter. So that you won't have to carry a heavy one.

Me I obviously had one like everyone else,

Everyone has there own breaking point where they had enough of

everything and that they can't hold it anymore and trust me it's heavy to

carry around that it hurts so much, I wounder if people carry more than they

should but I bet it has to do more with grief than it has to do with problems in

our normal way but those problems just makes it heavier to carry around.

But I just guess this is just part of growing up, to make everything be clear and

to know what is needed so that, what we have experienced from the past we can

put it in good use in the future, for we don't know what we should expect in the

future since it can't be told for anything can happen.

Still it is annoying that you have to deal with this breaking point thing which is

annoying in growing up I wish I had a better hold of myself but maybe this is

just me.

Step Up 3D - Official Trailer [HD]

OH.......................! MY.....................!GOD.......................!

"MOOSE I LOVE YOU!"

you are so awesome, I wish I can dance as good as you you've been in almost every STEP UP movie you're my favorite character and dancer ,especially. How do you do it oh my god.

I can't wait for this movie to come out I hope this isn't going to a disappointing one hope so if it's going to come out I will try to watch it when it is out. :)

Wait I think it's showing already is it... Oh well can't be disappointed

Childhood is a time where dreams and fantasys never die

Have you ever felt wishing on a star and it would come true, well I have, when i was young. Everything was full of happiness and selfishness sometimes but mostly about dreams that would come true, it was a never ending belief for all of us, it always started like this.

When we started life it always started like this, a never ending fantasy where witches, prince, princesses, fairies, dragons, superheros and many more come to life and take a world where you say anything can happen if you just believe. . . sigh. . . gosh I even make myself cry. The word "believe" was a powerful word when we are young, it never comes to us but it feels right; we never question it. Later on we say to ourselves "there's a lot of time lets enjoy and play".

Childhood isn't a time of grief and loss, yes I know it hurts but it is also a time of enjoying a place where your dreams, beliefs, fantasy and happiness never dies; it isn't about growing up but finding yourself through the process, this is part of growing up but this is a time to encourage self and going in deeper within you that you find what is needed and find out what you want and will be in the future.

Accept who you will be but mostly accept who you are because you might not know there might be a better future for you if you do accept who you are, everyone had a childhood, everyone experienced it so we all know who it feels and what it feels even if we only remember a little about it.

You can say I guess when you were in kindergarten you say you want to be a

• astronaut
• princess
• superhero
• baker
• mad scientist (scientist)
• Etc.

when you're in grade school you say to yourself you want to be a

• singer
• billionaire
• actor
• dancer
• mall owner
• Etc.

when you're in middle school you want to be

• president
• business owner
• photography
• inventor (not mad scientist)
• journalism
• Etc.

when you turn to the turning point well you say

"I DON'T KNOW WHAT IN THE WORLD I'LL BE YET !!!"

Friends are priceless treasures

Look how everyone looks when they have a friend beside them the all look happy. :)

Friends are priceless treasures they are always there when you are in need of trouble,the come and help us when we need it most, they got our backs and never leave us behind.

I experienced these feeling almost everyday of my life i never forget it I Love the feeling of being cared for even if you did something wrong, I might seem to be sometimes melodramatic well mostly last year but I figured out slowly that they are truly good friends they have a label "Gift of a friend" that is also a song find it in you tube it was sang by Demi Lovato.

thank you for everything my dear friends XD...

Vampires Suck Movie Trailer - Official (HD)

Hey!!! everyone look at this movie it is great (well if you're not a HUGE of twilight)

HAHAHA!!!

Hostage taking in Manila !? WHAT!!!

What! i cannot believe this, you know actions like these are very disgraceful to hear about, mostly for us Filipinos since it happened in our country and our people. Even though I'm young doesn't mean I don't know what is happening, as a youth this is not a role model that we are looking for, I'm really upset the officials didn't even think right that's what i heard of OK but they also said in the news that the guy just wanted his job back, may be they could have taken this way of my opinion to solve the problem:

1. talk to him smoothly or tell his brother to talk to him and soothe him out
2. they didn't have to arrest his brother 'cause it could make him have a breakdown and kill people
3. give him his job back( tell him of course that he has to show himself to get a higher position 'cause that's how Jobs work right)
4. also look at the way I'm telling you in a child's point of view in analyzing things but he has to be under security if they can let him off but there still would be a punishment given.
5. peace that's just my perspective in everything

so really I was disappointed at us they said we are the most "humble, loving, and decent people" but look, you know I liked the saying "Filipinos are worth Dying for" I might take it back.

I don't want to be judgmental and all but that's just what I think OK I'm sorry if I hurt anyone and their feelings

HOLD ME

This song is dedicated to my baby sister Tricia Nicole T. Taray


everyday in your arms,
if i fall, catch me fast,
in your strong arms at last,
like a little bird learning to fly,
that can't spread its wings in the sky,
oh dear Jesus help me fly,
if i fall down and break,
my little wings so weak,
then help me fix it up and be,
'cuz you're my guardian angel from above,
don't you see,

Help me I'm a broken road,
heal me for all its worth,
hold me tight in your arms,
don't let me go till i die,
i walk with you by my side,
holding arms wrapping tight,
don't let me fall,
through your arms,

i know you'll never leave my side,
'cuz I'm number 1 in your eyes,
like your number 1 in mine,
hold me forever more,
don't give me to someone else,
be with me all my life,

help me I'm a broken road,
heal me for all it's worth,
hold me tight in your arms,
don't let me go till i die,
i walk with you by my side,
holding arms wrapping tight,
don't let me fall,
through your arms,

please i need you all the time,
so you can put me back together,
I'm still growing up to be like you,
so i can find pieces of my life,
and be as strong as you,
so first give me your hands,
and put them around me,
then hold me tight,

help me I'm a broken road,
heal me for all it's worth,
hold me in your arms,
don't let me go till i die,
i walk with you by my side,
holding arms, wrapping tight,
don't let me fall, through your arms,

I got to try to fly once more,
you got to try once more,
just hold me,
hold me tight. . .

What do you thing it's suppose to be a lullaby k so what do you think i have tons of other songs but i don't know if it's good hope you guys liked it :)

your lips are red,
your eyes are blue,
your sweet as sugar,
thats why. . .



I LOVE YOU

DANCE WITH MY FATHER AGAIN

back when i was a child,
before life removed all the innocent,
my father would lift me high,
and dance with my mother and me and then,
spin me around till i fell asleep,
then up the stairs he would carry me,
and i knew for sure i was loved,

if i could get, another chance, another
walk, another dance with him,
I'd play a song that would never ever end,
how i love love love to dance with my father again,

ooh, ohh

when i and my mother disagree,
to get my way i would run from her to him,
he'd make me laugh just to confront me,
yeah, yeah,
then finally make me do just what my mama said,
later that night when i was asleep,
he left a dollar under my sheet,
never dreamed that he would be gone from me,

if i could get one final chance, one final walk,
one final dance with him,
I'd play a song that would never ever end,
how i love love love to dance with my father again.

i listened out side her door,
and i head here mama cry for him,
i pray for her even more than me,
i pray for her even more than me,
i know i'm prayin' for much to much,
but could you send back the only man she loved,
i know you don't do it usually, but Lord she's dying,
to dance with my father again,

every night i fall asleep,
and this is all i ever dream.....

the 5 L's in life ( my opinion)

LIVE

LOVE

LAUGH

LEISURE

LEARN

second chances don't always happen so try to say YES

Yes, it is true that life is full of second chances but not all the time there are sometimes times we wont have second chances that we regret not doing or saying it, it always is painful doing nothing but we are very shy to bring our true colors out it always is very hard doing stuff that might actually hurt us, specifically showing our true colors.

There is one experience I would like to discuss.

I had this grandmother who we all love she would always ask me "would you like to come and spend some time with me" i would always answer "NO" but when she died i regret all those NO's i had said to her and tell myself for a month "why?" " why didn't you just say more "Yes" than say more no's I wondered that myself then i answered myself . . . . . "it was because i had my own selfish reasons i always put my self first i forgot that life could be so short i never really thought of it until that it changed me for a better me."

I'm just happy!!!

FILIPINO POWER

Yes! the peoples champ "PAC MAN" won after defeating
"Clotty" (hambugero)
the whole philippines is happy with the fight that went on
GOD BLESS to him and to everyone.

the "G" team (very cool)

they are such a cool team i'm so jelly ...............................

THE ABBAS ORCHARD HIGH SCHOOL ON FREEEEEEEEE TIME.......ANE ECT.

I'LL ADD MORE SOON.............

SOWYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.........................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

GWAPA o GWAPO you deside :)

don't this picture look so cute.

Baby for sale...

hahahahahaahahhahaahahhh..................

for contacts if you want this

call/text me:#09122333444

just jok'in hehee....!!!!!

SuMmEr!!!!!!!!!!!

Summer is near, so everyone pack for your bags bring your swimming gear and go strai to the beach. The only things you need to do there is just enjoy, relax and have fun with friends and family.

bring your barkada or group and enjoy an island stiy in any resort closest to you since SUMMER is here.

Riene :)

Reine is an alien form another galaxy, that is why she is so pretty and beautiful.
She is our "DEAR GREAT MOTHER".
WHAT?
I know its impissible to beleive but yes just don't forget she in an alien that came from another galaxy.

"WARNING!!!" when you meet this creature you'll say at first she's so beautiful but careful loves eating children.

Careful and watch out!

LUTHER VANDROSS - Biography

Birth:20 April 1951/ New York city, New York, USA

Death:1 July 2005/ Edison, New Jersy, USA (complication of a stroke)

Name:Luther Ronzoni Vandross

Nicename:Ronnie

Biography: He was the heartbeat of R&B in the 1980's & 1990's, yet lived a prductive singing and songwriting life prior to this preeminence. The soul balladeer's strong commitment to the art of music countinued on its GRAMMY-WINNING course even afteer an acute stroke in 2003 left him severely incapacitable and unable to countinue public appearances. Luther Ronzoni Vandross was dorn in New York city 1951 and was the baby of all his siblings.

TRIP TO MARIA CHRISTINA FALLS

I went to "MARIA CHRISTINA FALLS" HERE ARE SOME PICS.

IT"S SO NICE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!