More than meets the eye

Have you ever had those feelings that there's a bigger world out there, that actually we're not alone in this world. Where there is this thin veil of mist just separating us from what we think is impossible but what actually isn't. It's frustrating to think its just there and all we have to do is push away those veils for us to finally see, but how? How can we do that if we can't even be truly sure ourselves.

I have always dreamt and wanted such a world like that. It's heart aching thinking such things that seem so close yet so far, so close to our grasp but an inch to far.

Have you ever had those dreams or imaginations in where you get to soar with the birds, swim with the dolphins and run with the horses. It's already such an amazing feeling in my mind, but think if it were true how much more amazing would it be.

Sometimes life is more than meets the eye, sometimes we have to look twice at somethings or someone to really see the treasure hidden in the depths behind unseen closed doors. It makes us wonder at time why haven't I truly seen it at first but the truth is we were never really concentrating hard enough for us to see, to see such beauty, such mysteries, such emotion and such things others see but we didn't because we were blind enough to not care what's around us.

In life we always have to be alert, never just lingering or lazing around because we just might miss some things that later on we will regret and I know we wouldn't want that, in a world of actual full possibilities like ours we are just all scared. So, we just live in what we know and not by what we don't, it's a sad idea but I can only guess it is in our nature to feel in such a way we do now.

For me to end this, all I want to say is never to stop believing in such possibilities because we might never know, this idea might be amazingly quite true. 

When Tommorow Comes

Les Miserables was a fun play. We had some difficulties in some practices but just laugh it up in the end, we all each had an important part Mr. Chris said even though our part are just some extras or just very small. He said what matters most is that each of us must do our best. We were all gifted and blessed, everyone worked hard even though some of us were not that into the play all of us just wanted to finally be done but now actually we all just miss it. When we were finally going to do the real thing my stomach was churning I wanted to barf/puke because I was to dehydrated from our last practice in the early morning.

For one whole entire week we have been practicing over and over again just to make it perfect. Even our stage director "Miss Annie" was stressed out. I was even also grateful for the teachers because they have just all worked so hard to get us this far. They even already sleep pass 12 midnight because of us. We just are so thankful also for "Mr. Dan" who is our musical director and "Mr. Manuel" for also being the assistant music director.

We all know that this play was aggressively ambitious and very eagerly done but even though we are still proud of it. Some other schools that will go unmentioned have said that our beloved school The Abba's Orchard, is so high thinking in other words show offs or just think we can to but can't. If they just also know that we have worked hard day and night to finally reach are one goal. To be done with the play and get a standing ovation.

The play practice starts 9:30am in the morning and end most of the time end at around 7:00pm or later. Even though we have just practiced the blocking for one week we all did our best and gave 110% of all we got. Most of us were just tired and sleepy but even then we were all packed with determination and encouragement we give to each other.

The only thing i know is that we give our grace and credit to God who also has given us the grace to make the play wonderfully great and enchanting, we all just want to be grateful for everything that he has given us and the courage and strength that he has given us when we were doing the play.
At the end we got what we wanted a standing ovation a full house and a beautiful ending. With all our hard work, sweat and late night we are finally done and tired. This was all a dream come true to be done with this and now we might have another play. From what i heard there were many people waiting outside to see if there were extra tickets just that it was a one night one show thing we never really imagined that many would want to see it but yes it was a great hit.

Now look ate these pictures and highlights from I dream a dream Abba's Orchard Les Miserables:

12th day of Christmas! Yes, the last! A sad story and it happened last year when I was twelve

On the twelfth day of Christmas . . .

Just a reminder 13days before Christmas.

So right Christmas is a time for forgiveness and understanding yet people never really get it sometimes, I just posted in facebook that "fairness is not getting what you want it's getting what you need even if it look unfair in your perspective." People get confuse and the only thing I want most of all is peace and harmony in the air and I can't get it. Just because there's one person and for ears I don't know what I did to him, so OK we were friends at first but then he got all mad at me and I don't know maybe that person just changed. And for years I keep wondering "why?"

So one day I told my friend and then that person replied back and then he said "Sorry I was being such a jerk and I know. I didn't really mean it." OH! COME! ON! Why in the world or What in the world! Is the Earth going to exploded.

At first I believed him and we texted since we were friends again and later after two days he made a move he shouldn't have, he said like "I like your cousin." MY GOD WHAT A SLEAZE! Also when he said it, it was Christmas Eve isn't that nice.

Then at the end I was the sore loser because of him he is nothing but a jerk forever and ever and ever.

-THE END-

Physiology - FUN or SCARY. . .

I'm still a bit amazed, paranoid and scared but it was fun like some people I mean phys. it's like they know someone by just looking at them it's like they know who you are better then you know your self and it's kind of freaky. OK, so I got to this subject because the 2nd years including me(since I'm one to)were talking about some things or like we were opening our selves up, it's just that our teacher was a phys and we were suppose to get our results on our physiology test she gave us. Since some were not done we talked about other things.

So for one our teacher said "Describe yourself with one object." So I described myself to a rock. It was like the first thing that came out of my mind, I don't really know why but something was telling it was the best way to describe "ME", so I picked it, it felt like the perfect answer but I didn't know how to explain it. So when we were going to explain it I didn't know what to say it was like-BOOM! The explanation was in my heard right away, it got inside my head like I could explain it perfectly again. It was all so confusing.

Later she(the teacher)explained each of our objects to us and explained us and it was scary cause most of the things she said was almost like my but just a few edges but everything was like me again, except it wasn't directed at me like she new someone from the group with the problems.

But it was actually fun and I actually liked it since she said we might do it more and more every week I'd actually want to learn more about the me I never really did discovered yet.

Eleventh day of Christmas

On the eleventh day of Christmas . . .

I'm going to go Christmas shopping with my grandma and mom since they'll be picking us up and bring us home. I just can't wait it's been a long time not going home yet and yeah I miss is a lot wish I could be there already, I miss family already even though my mom was here two week ago and it already feels like three months!
I know. I know. I'm over reacting but-yes I badly want to rest from school but we will be bringing home some work over Christmas. I wouldn't mind much but there only three weeks of vacation! But hey, when will the learning ever stop-NEVER! Even we learn quite interesting stuff while growing older but things also we won't need to use for school.

10th dy of Christmas

On the tent day of Christmas . . .

Well my mom called me from Bali and asked what I wanted there for a Christmas present. All I just wanted was a book well books and that's enough for me I don't mind getting much things, I appreciate even the little things but most of all different memories in each one.

Like a picture. It's like every Christmas isn't the same and you just need a picture or one little thing to remember that special moment. For me every year is different and it's like Christmas is the last time to fix the problems you had this year, learn to accept and forget it happened. The time when you want to put things right and start out fresh in the new year to come.

Nineth day of Christmas

On the ninth day of Christmas . . .

So last time I told you about the parties well for starts the children in my family join most or sometimes all the parties if we can or if our parents allow so here's the list:

• Shell station parties ( Carmen, Kidapawan and Kabacan but we mostly go to Carmen since we live there)
• Workers parties (Dad's workers plus including with my mom's and them there's my grandmother's which we join occasionally)
• Relative parties
• Family party
• New years eve party and fireworks (which everyone in our town buys fireworks and all the families when it reaches 12 we light everything up and the sky is full of wonder, colors, lights and happiness.

So sometimes my family is packed but everything is all fun and games even though busy. Everything is just all great plus our whole entire family enjoys it.

8th day of Christmas

On the eighth day of Christmas . . .

I just love it when its' Christmas and everyone is preparing for it and then there will be a big feast where everyone shared the food they made, it just gives a cozy holiday feeling. It just sometimes make you feel more at home somehow, yet know one will notice if you feel that way.

Countdown: 17 MORE DAYS BEFORE CHRISTMAS! REPEATING 17 DAYS MORE TO GO!

I can't wait to smell turkey and ham and anyways I'll be helping cooking with my family which is fine by me. My family just loves cooking, especially I'm main cores and my cousin is dessert but we just help each other cause it's more fun.
My cousin and I we're the oldest from all the children so we also plan our family game and which ever comes first, then we also plan with my Tito for the children's party and then we join a group in the other parties which I'll tell you about I my new post.

Seventh day of Christmas

On the seventh day of Christmas . . .

Well I finish a bit early we all never can at the same time finish our seat works, so let's just say we don't need the extra load in other extra curriculum activities but we can work it through.
So just a reminder Christmas is in 18 days so be good or he won't give you anything at all.
Also my parents are leaving to go to Bali for a week, so I have to take care of my brother and sister which I have to call everyday but that's just fine with me.
Hopefully they'll be back before Chistmas so nothing to worry about, just hope they bring home some nice gifts. Hehehe.

6th day of Christmas

On the sixth day of Christmas . . .

Yesterday I was just so exhausted from the Christmas party, I didn't know what to do I was sleepy and out of energy. All I wanted to do was sleep everything was just all but tired. I even can't think straight what else am I going to do with out feeling tired, and Christmas is in 19 days.

Well I'm running low so give some advice to whoever reads this so that I'll have my energy back and make sure it's good ones.

Fifth day of Christmas

On the fifth day of Christmas . . .

Yesterday was just crazy and also today since we didn't sleep till seven in the morning. It was just great. So we started out with the cheers by group and them moved on with the cheers by year it was fun. the second years were just crazy well we were crazy, it was just hilarious with the beginning wiping our hair back and forth, then the G6 later Nico and Patrick after Charissa and Kenjee and last but not least, we pulled the forth years in and but left them in the middle when the song was done.(sigh) It was a memorable experience.
Anyways after all the cheers we started the games I got to do the hula-hoop, drink kamote juice(it was yummy but i was still so full i almost puked.), answer the drawings and junp in the pool. I liked my group very much and it all worked out cause we were first place which was great, the feeling was great also.
So I don't know how long we stayed in the pool swimming but maybe around 3-4 hours i know it's so much but I'm just guessing. We also didn't sleep whole night but we had fun. We told ghost stories, played dancing ball and many more things to do but it was worth it but the thing that's not woth it is the after musle pain.

4th day of Chirstmas

On the Forth day of Christmas. . .

Well today we went to CCF to listen to Francis J. Kong, as always he knows how to make an entrance, he even can make us all laugh which is great and that's a good thing cause most of us were all teens there. anyways after that we would be going to Alwanabut we ate lunch in Macdo and went to National to buy a wrapper for Charissa's kingle. (meant for yesterday)

Third day of Christmas

On the third day of Christmas . . .

Well today was soccer and well i got hit in the stomach it hurt but i was fine, I'm just not sure of Denise her hand got broken. At first it was her ankle or foot but now it's her wrist. This is not a good vibe for the Christmas spirit. TSK! TSK!
I don't want it to start it with people getting hurt. I hope before Christmas everyone has there spirit back.
anyway the next day would be the Christmas party which everyone was excited about. YEAH!!!

2nd day of Christmas

On the second day of Christmas . . .

It was just a normal day we anyways all had fun. Plus everyone was excited for the Christmas party. well also it was my "Business presentation" it went well but I'm not totally sure if my explanation was OK or just fine, i was a really nervous i don't know if my voice was shaking but it was scary.

Iwonder if we just bought our goats earlier and sell them before classes end; i wonder if a lot of people would buy our goats also by them but i want them to be all "BIG & FAT", that would just be great.

"First day of Christmas!"

On the first day of Christmas. . .

I've been eating no stop which is bad and by the end of the week I'll bet I'd gain 2 kilos! Ah! This is such a bad way to start the holidays, very, very bad but I will promise to myself if I can to control it. I really am a failure sometimes.
So the holidays are coming and I can't wait, there will be much to do this week.

1. Christmas shopping
2. Sleep over(Katja and other high school students coming to Alwana)
3. Chrismas party
4. Giving gifts to the poor

It really is quite tiring but who can put up to the Christmas spirit! Oh, what a joy! I can't wait for Christmas with all the gifts and roasted ham, fruit cake, candy cane, ginger bread, hot/chocolate. Yummy!

"HAPPY CHRISTMAS"

Everybody woke up, in the first fall of snow,
when I walked through the village,
everyone seemed to rejoice,
the snow was a gift from heaven above,
a gift for Christmas eve,

Chorus:

Christmas, Christmas, here's a spell,

we only need people to put happiness in the air,

throw all you sadness and the sorrow's gone,

cause it's a time for Happy Christmas songs,

Christmas is a time for love and forgiveness,
a time for families to join hand in hand,
everyone brought gifts and smelled roasted ham,
and every thing's full of happiness,

Chorus:
Christmas, Christmas, here's a spell,
we only need people to put happiness in the air,
throw all your sadness and the sorrow's gone,
cause it's a time for Happy Christmas songs,

It's just a simple feast with family and friends,
laughing and talking round the chimney,
Christmas is full of joyful moments,
wishing to last an eternity,

wishing upon a star so bright,
in the midis of trouble and faithful times,
it's midnight of Christmas eve,
yet full of life within the circle so bright,
that reminds me of the birth of Christ,
that all gives us hope when I feel there's no light,

Chorus:
Christmas, Christmas.....(Continue)....

"Something that lies a mystery"

the day will long, while light is near,
where no darkness nor light can be revere,
the sears of burning fire calls. . .

. . .but there is dout that can't be quench,

while you listen keenly to what it said,

burning, burning all the years,

never have i known i'll be the one to share,

the pain i feel locked up somewhere. . .

. . .From the bottom of my heart I vow this oath,
with pride to give my word or cursed,
the curse I keep locked inside,
is the one that will destroy me all my life. . .

. . .i neglect to overlook what i fear,

but then the light has disappered from where i stand,

yet darkness diminishes with light in its hands,

i overgrow to perceive what's on my path,

yet my questions unrequinted until i am claimed at last. . .

. . .when darkness and light can finally soothe in my hands,

and slumber a deep slumber that that will never arouse,

with all the power left in me, i will beckon to unearth,

the treasure hidden somewhere in the darkess depts of my heart.

( hope you like it :) )