Simply me

I'm just one of your average teenage girls who is still a bit (a bit) confused of growing, it is hard but just enjoy while it last. I'm simply an ordinary person but I want to be the kind of ordinary person who knows how to make funny jokes which I'm really bad at.
I'm simply me because I'm me and that is the easiest explanation to explain it. Without the tricks and without anyone to can judge me I can fell myself and express myself freely in my own way of being simply me.

If I want to shout then I shout if I want to cry out loud then Let me cry out loud, people can say anything about me but they cant destroy who I am they have to learn to accept me for me. No one can judge me because they don't even know me that well then others do, so how can they judge me for being simply me. Maybe there more insecure about themselves so they put there insecurities on other people or they have a problem of their own, so they make other people fell more bad about themselves and I got that information from my own experiences.

Don't forget that simply you is just the real you covered in thick layers of insecurities.


(Ms. Jeni there was something wrong with my Internet I sorry got to sleep see you later today at dawn)

"Live life to the fullest"

Life is never fair and just to short, life is never always happy but like I said in my other post there are no second chances. You can redo the things over and over and over again like a movie trying to be perfected and yet it will never be the same as the first one or rather yet it will never be perfect, no matter what you do to make sure life for you is perfect there will always be a bump on the road no matter the consequences. You know sometimes people need to understand what is the meaning of life is they need to open there eyes and see the world around, see what joy it offers and yet when you see the joy it offers you also see the sadness it brings.

People tell me "Let go, relax, open your eyes, spread your wings, take it easy, rest, etc." people tell me these things especially my mom and dad always encouraging me to "Cool down or you're going to get high blood when you're still young". I laugh at these things but to tell you this is all so true.

It's like you're this shy person who is so quiet around people and they judge you for that but the truth is your not. Pretend you're a hermit crab, you're always scared if something or someone goes to near so you hide the real you in that thick shell of yours, there were times when you can't fit your shell so you have to fine a new one. Life is like that you have to start a new chapter a place where you fit and fell like you belong. You first need to find yourself and see who you really and truly are but you also need to show people who you really are. I try to do it with myself but steadily and slowly. I know life is just to short and all but people need to understand who we are and we feel to trust ourselves. We need to break out of our shells from time to time.

My teacher ones said we also have to go past our comfort zone because that's just the reality. I know she's right. My mom also reminds of that 'cause the life outside our childhood world it just to wild and unsafe.

People need to live life to the fullest not matter the options and mistakes you've done in the past. Life was given as a gift from God and I don't think he would be happy if we just wasted it not on just worshiping him but also enjoying ourselves with what is offered. To be honest, sometimes I regret life but I always take it back without even noticing. I'm happy where I am and where I have landed because without those mistakes and choices I wouldn't be here and I wouldn't know what I'd be right now. You know people are right you always need to live life with your fullest of hopes, dreams, love and gifts you've been given.

Enjoy what you have 'cause you don't know where you'll end up to be.

They have this thing called reincarnation but the sad part is you won't remember the things of what you've done in the past which is sad but still full of hope, which means there are really true second chances but only on chance which is only for every life you have so that it would never come to wither.

"Live life to your fullest and never regret anything in any way you think you've done wrong."
-Ella-

STUDY (meaning of study i got this from someone sorry if this is offending)

Sorry ms. and anyone who is offended i just got this from someone at school.


S - leep

T - ext

U - nhappy

D - ay dream

Y - awn

Oh, FYI you know that I don't mean any of these I got it from a friend and by the way kind of is funny. hahaha. I know what you think it really is let us say mean but it is to tell you creative, I don't really know how to explain this but wow.
I don't again mean this post to be offending and all again I say, I just wanted to post something like this it has just been A while when I put my last personal joke in my blog but since it isn't mine it isn't my originally but who can deny this little and a bit of insulting joke about Studying. hahaha

Dwight Howards amazing heart-warming story

You know I read this story from Yahoo and I felt happy-sad or sad-happy at the same time the person who wrote this is amazing 'cause this is an amazing, heart warming story.
Right you know who is Dwight Howard the basketball player. Yeah, well he was asked by this organization that (if you're almost going to die or if you're really super sick then they let you pick one of your best wish and make it come true)if you can go to this old woman who was dying with this aggressive cancer I don't know what it is called. Well if you are wondering if he went he did.
The next thing you know the woman was surprised to see her hero
"DWIGHT HOWARD"
in the front of her door.
He was only suppose to stay there for only 30minutes but then he decided to stay there for more than 2hours. See how amazing that is even for him being so busy just to spend time with this woman that she barely knows. These are the things she said about Dwight.

"Dwight Howard is just such a precious, wonderful kid," she says. "Whenever I watch him play, he just makes me feel good inside."

But then, Dwight ratchets things up a notch and really sets things off.

When she gingerly stood up to say goodbye, he bent way, way down, hugged her hard and told her something startling. He told this 4-foot-11 woman who is dying of cancer, "You are taller than me."

"That's the silliest thing I've ever heard," she said.

"No," Dwight insisted, "you are taller than me because your spirit lifts you up."

See how this story can make even the slightest have teary eyes it made me, still the story was happy-sad or which ever makes it sound right to you isn't this just a heart -warming story and wow I was amazed by i all mostly of Dwight.

Public speaking

You know what I think "public speaking" is so not my thing, it is because people say I talk to fast, my heart beats super fast and when there is a large crowd I have a shaky voice and while that my body shakes with it.
The weird thing also is that people think I have a "British accent" but I don't sill if I say that no one would ever believe me I would just be untrusted for my answer in that question. I really don't like public speaking and all but I just love the thrill the accomplishment it gives you it makes you feel so good, I don't know but I like being heard and in a crowd saying something good and helpful but I can't control my shyness it's just who I am as a person.


"I want to be heard but I'm scared to be heard because people might just mock me for it."

This is just me don't mind who i am because you have to accept me for me.

The meaning of "LIFE"

The meaning of life has never occurred to me many time in my life. I always thing of the future, past but mostly present, I adore the present times because I'm always happy. Yes, there are times when I get all emotional and all but that's just part of life people keep telling me, that move on with your life it's the past and we can't do anything to change it it already happened so we can't just change it like go back in time to fix your mistakes it will never work.

They say that Life is a gift and yes I am grateful for it but I just need to know what what is the true, specific, ideal, unquestionable, perfect, and easy to understand meaning of Life. Someone tell me what is life to you then just a gift from God, I am here to ask you what do you think of life open your eyes and think, think of what life is to you besides the things I've told you about it is a gift and from God. I wonder why even myself why I ask this question, the only thing I want to know what is Life to you in your own point of view of the world.

For me I have so many unanswered questions I want and need know of the meanings it is quite difficult to understand when at all I have know clue about anything, for my part the point of view of life to me is still an unanswered question. From what I've heard most people don't even know the answer. So tell me your story of life in your perspective way and manner.








Pls. if yo have an answer can you post or put it in my chat box.

"Predictable me"

I bet I'm the most predictable one in class I say the most random stuff I talk like an owl that is so boring, I also think people are not interested in me. So I think the best way away from me is try not to talk to me. Yet there are still people who come to me but I know they want to be nice I just feel sometimes kind of insecure. I don't know what they think of me which makes me more insecure. I never feel to cautious of my insecurities so I wouldn't really think of them. I am for me the most predictable person one I know, people tell me that " Yeah, yeah" or "wow... (sarcastically)", you know those tiny words really hurt if people just know how you feel, then maybe they would see all the pain that you're in.

If only people could be more polite sometimes and more generous then maybe everything would just be fine and the world would be just a bit peaceful. But later the world would just go upside down again and everything turns into your little nightmare, I wounder if everyone experienced it. Oh yeah it's one of my predictable questions for making me predictable again. The answer would be again of course everyone experienced this it wouldn't be human.

Why do I have to be a boring, predictable,insecure, etc. kind of person. I never am the right one I'm always the sour puss if I'm angry or irritated and when I feel all alone I'm the to quite and shy little girl that I am. I always need someone to help me on my feet I always need someone to talk to or I' ll always have an emotional breakdown, when I can't tell what I want to say because there might be some people who might criticize on what I'm going to say. You know I always want a very close friend because with a friend you don't feel alone and you have someone to tell your secrets to. It matters so much to me to have a friend by my side because we know that we have each others backs. I've already felt alone to many times that I need to help myself already and for the record I only have 5 very close friends

1. Joab
2. Ivana
3. Mandy
4. Natassja
5. Katja (I like calling her close 'causeum she was my first very super friend in CDO last year no one at all came that super close to me that fast.)

Most of them were only friends for a reason right so there reason is

• Sweet-Sweet (childhood friends)
• Joab (family friends)
• Mandy & Natassja ( AOS Davao)
• Katja (lets see were friendship may take us first)

So really I think this is how it goes. When I'm around them I don't feel predictable boring or any insecurities it's like these people have some kind of thing going on around them that makes me feel all OK they accept me for me and they actually are easy to talk to, they have this kind of charisma in them that attracts people.

Pizza!

PIZZA IS SO YUMMY.



Did you know pizza has become the most favorite dish in America over the last 50years. Pizza has also become a fast food icon.




History also says that the origin of pizza goes back all the way to the ancient times, yet they have not found solid proof. the most and best answer is that pizza was originated from Italy. That there was this chef that wanted to impress a king and a queen so he decided to get a flat piece of bread ant wanted to put the colours of there flag:

1. Red - tomato sauce
2. White - mozzarella cheese
3. Green - Basil leaves

The king and queen were so impressed by the chef creation that word spread and became a nation wide cuisine dish.

OH! NO!

Oh, no myself. Seems that I'm so busy next week we have our Long exams, dramatists for literature and more I don't even know where to start we are to busy especially for the long exams, I don't know what else to worry about. I bet there is still a lot more to handle when we get back to school.

OK everybody we need to rest, study and practice dear me I am so jumbled up. Wait! I forgot I have to memorize the two last paragraphs in the " Give me Liberty or give me Death!" speech.

MY BABY SISTER

My baby sisters

name:
Tricia Nicole T. Taray

age:
just 1 month and 5 days old.(today)

My baby sister is the cutest thing you'll ever see she's like a fluffy puppy but all babies are like that except for the fluffy and to fury part and with the wagging tail. My sister likes to laugh, cry, sleep(like me) and drink lots of milk.

She looks more like me than my parents when i was young. She has Rose coloured cheeks(but it's 'cause of the rashes), light red with a hint of pink lips like mine, long lashes, black hair, chubby cheeks and a bit chubby like me. Hahaha. Still it depends on you because I think I'm chubby or if you thing I'm purely fat it's OK.

I still think my sister looks like me my mom and dad even said that and no one can do anything about that.

(sorry don't have pictures I'll do it in school. Oh yeah sorry Ms. Jeni I didn't do my blog last night I had no time at all plus I was taking care of my baby sister since they arrived last night.)

miss Jeni you might get lost so this is my 2nd blog OK so sorry.

Soccer

The COSAA game has been officially canceled this September 4. Still I was happy to hear the news, it is because I think we might need the extra practice like everyone since we are still all newbies. I hate though it got canceled because my mom and dad were suppose to watch me play, in truth they never seen me play in a game only my dad but those were only practices we had in school but it would be exciting my mom and dad would see me play for real.

Though there was this teacher who told us that we were bad players and need to work harder on our footwork, you know it that really hurt our hearts ( ms. you know who you are) it was painful yes, yes it was all so true but she didn't have to hurt us. Anyways at the end we forgave her since she had a lot in her mind to so we understood.

Ms. we all forgave you so don't worry. :P

Breaking point

Have you ever had a

breaking point where you can't take it anymore

and you just had to let it all out even if it is kind of shameful but

right there is nothing to be shameful about it, since it is also a way of

expressing yourself freely to let it just all out so the pack you are carrying

will get lighter. So that you won't have to carry a heavy one.

Me I obviously had one like everyone else,

Everyone has there own breaking point where they had enough of

everything and that they can't hold it anymore and trust me it's heavy to

carry around that it hurts so much, I wounder if people carry more than they

should but I bet it has to do more with grief than it has to do with problems in

our normal way but those problems just makes it heavier to carry around.

But I just guess this is just part of growing up, to make everything be clear and

to know what is needed so that, what we have experienced from the past we can

put it in good use in the future, for we don't know what we should expect in the

future since it can't be told for anything can happen.

Still it is annoying that you have to deal with this breaking point thing which is

annoying in growing up I wish I had a better hold of myself but maybe this is

just me.

Step Up 3D - Official Trailer [HD]

OH.......................! MY.....................!GOD.......................!

"MOOSE I LOVE YOU!"

you are so awesome, I wish I can dance as good as you you've been in almost every STEP UP movie you're my favorite character and dancer ,especially. How do you do it oh my god.

I can't wait for this movie to come out I hope this isn't going to a disappointing one hope so if it's going to come out I will try to watch it when it is out. :)

Wait I think it's showing already is it... Oh well can't be disappointed

Childhood is a time where dreams and fantasys never die

Have you ever felt wishing on a star and it would come true, well I have, when i was young. Everything was full of happiness and selfishness sometimes but mostly about dreams that would come true, it was a never ending belief for all of us, it always started like this.

When we started life it always started like this, a never ending fantasy where witches, prince, princesses, fairies, dragons, superheros and many more come to life and take a world where you say anything can happen if you just believe. . . sigh. . . gosh I even make myself cry. The word "believe" was a powerful word when we are young, it never comes to us but it feels right; we never question it. Later on we say to ourselves "there's a lot of time lets enjoy and play".

Childhood isn't a time of grief and loss, yes I know it hurts but it is also a time of enjoying a place where your dreams, beliefs, fantasy and happiness never dies; it isn't about growing up but finding yourself through the process, this is part of growing up but this is a time to encourage self and going in deeper within you that you find what is needed and find out what you want and will be in the future.

Accept who you will be but mostly accept who you are because you might not know there might be a better future for you if you do accept who you are, everyone had a childhood, everyone experienced it so we all know who it feels and what it feels even if we only remember a little about it.

You can say I guess when you were in kindergarten you say you want to be a

• astronaut
• princess
• superhero
• baker
• mad scientist (scientist)
• Etc.

when you're in grade school you say to yourself you want to be a

• singer
• billionaire
• actor
• dancer
• mall owner
• Etc.

when you're in middle school you want to be

• president
• business owner
• photography
• inventor (not mad scientist)
• journalism
• Etc.

when you turn to the turning point well you say

"I DON'T KNOW WHAT IN THE WORLD I'LL BE YET !!!"